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Ihad a very difficult childhood. Things were normal until my parents gotseparated when I was quite young. But things turned into worse when my mum gotremarried. My stepfather was a complete maniac. Constant arguments between mymum and stepfather soon became a norm. He wouldn't bother about any familyresponsibility and was a very violent kinda guy. Often he harmed my mum physicallywhen he would become hyper. I couldn't understand what my mother saw in thatguy that she fall in love and got married to him. Even though I was not mymum's best friend (I guess I could never forgive her for separating me from mydad!), but I used to feel deep sympathy for her.
It?sbeen long since I am on my own. But May be witnessing the bitter relationshipall through my growing up years have affected me a lot. I don't know why, but Icould never feel like committing to a relationship. I am quite good lookingwith a pretty good figure and height, so it's only natural that guys during myuniversity days expressed interest to go out with me. Initially when I wassaying No to them, my friends would think it's only because I don't like theseguys. But when it happened each time, they had a strong doubt that somethingelse is the problem. How can it be possible that no guy is up to my preferredchoice criteria? They even tried to set me on blind date with the best friendsof their boy friend. But I would refuse each time by citing any lame excuse.
Inever confided about my bitter childhood to anyone except my best friend Julietwho was my friend from junior school days. She could very well understand whatmy real problem was. It's not that I hate guys or like any particular guy, it?sabout my lack of trust on them. i could not just rely on them. So one day on ourmeeting over coffee, she suggested me about free online dating service. I wassurprised at first as how she could advice me something like online dating. ButJuliet assured me that she understands me that well, that's why she issuggesting me this. Free online dating service is not like any regular blinddate setting. I would have the liberty to chat with a guy, to know him betterand then decide about dating him or not.