Most people want to accomplish and be successful and I imagine you're no different, but you never win by trying to be anyone else. It's great to have role models but you are you, and you must accept yourself for who you are.
However, to live the S.O.B. life, you must have goals and dreams. At this time in your life, what is your mission and what do you still want to accomplish? If you aren't doing them, then you need to ask yourself what or who is stopping you? Are there steps and people who can help you along the way?
An S.O.B. is strong enough to make the hard choices, set manageable goals, go for the gusto and keep on track despite all the obstacles, roadblocks, naysayers, sidetracks and doubts. Since S.O.B.'s understand that they're responsible for themselves, don't blame anyone else or expect others to make the magic for you. Find a way with no excuses.
What will add to your happiness? New hobby, new job, new friend, new partner? Whatever it is, start mapping out how to find it. You have left a lot of baggage behind you at this point and if you haven't, maybe that's what you need to start doing. Are all the time, effort, expense, stress, persistence and any other hardships you've been through worth keeping? If yes, keep doing it. If no, move on.
You may have to chop your ambitions into bite-size pieces rather than tackling everything at once, but any way you slice it, there's a price to pay and only you can determine if it's worth it. This is your script and your life. Write it any way you would like.
S.O.B's don't dwell on failures. It doesn't matter what won't work-only what does. They excel on results and know that discipline and persistence carries them through. I know those two traits have saved my "butt" more times than I care to remember.
It only takes one success to wipe out a whole lot of nonsuccesses. Can you keep on trying? I'm sure you can. However if you don't, 12 months from now, it will still be a year later and nothing will have been accomplished. Why waste your life living someone else's blueprint?
