When you first enter into the getting divorced process, there is way to much emotional pain to be able to see that something good might be happening. It might be completely impossible to see any good at all. But as you mature through the process (and perhaps because of it) you just might start to see why your divorce is a blessing in disguise.

We frequently are incapable of telling ourselves the truth submerged in our situation. It oftentimes takes years of processing and working with those ideas before we can tell those truths to ourselves. Our friends might see the truth in a snap, but when they try to tell us, we protect ourselves with denial. It's one of those "You can't handle the truth!" situations. If we cannot admit it even to ourselves, there is no way we'd bare our souls to admit it to any other.

So we live with the pain, but little by little, as we struggle through the massive changes that divorce mandates, in our quiet moments, small thoughts begin to seep through our consciousness. "I'm glad he's not here. We wouldn't have had nearly as much fun if he'd been here." "Oh she would have put a real damper on this party. Good riddance." "Well thank goodness I didn't have to deal with his drunken behavior tonight!" "My home has been so much clean since that slob isn't here any more." I could give many more examples, but I'm smiling because I think you are listing your own right now. Am I right?

You'll move closer to the truth when you begin to admit to yourself and sometimes simultaneously to your friends, that your ex was a lot less than perfect than you let on to them; how their behavior really bothered you; how you hid it from your family and friends. Admitting to flaws is the start of one of the biggest benefits you'll accrue: integrity. You begin to unfold the ability to tell the truth right in the moment without hiding it. Soon, you'll be telling yourself the truth as it happens and it's so freeing.

Then, there's self-sufficiency. While married, each spouse tends to emotionally lean on the other guy. I knew that when I was all alone, even with all my sense of resentment and digging in my heels because I didn't want to do something, I really got clear with that it 'was' only me. When my former spouse was there in person, it was still always and only just me, but I could not see that with her there, only after she left. I grew stronger and more self-sufficient as I lived my life with my daughters, and today, it's such a blessing to know that I'm the only one I can look to or lean on for everything.

When I became honest, and self-sufficient, I was able to love and accept myself more. I could applaud the decisions I made; I could move without hesitation into them. I realized that I could repair any mistakes later on. I began to recognize not only my weaknesses (well, my ex helped me a lot with that one) but I began to recognize my strengths. I now know quite a bit about my character and my personality. All this courtesy of my divorce.

Did you get all the good stuff? integrity, self-sufficiency, love, and acceptance. These are critical steps in this life. These are your blessings in disguise from your divorce - it's benefits! View them as part of the pathway to heaven. You are on that pathway right now.