I wrote a message   On the wall   The wall was you      I was heretic   And through it all   I was using you      I dreamed of spaceships   I soared and crawled   because of you      I took a snapshot   of my fall   I looked through you      Cos I wanted to see   cos I wanted to feel   Cos I wanted to fall apart like you      Cos I wanted to be   Cos I want to decieve   Cos I wanna be a liar just like you      Cos I know what abuse is   Cos I know what the truth is   Cos I'm holding the proof that I'm not like you      Cos I wanna give up   Cos I wanna throw up   Cos I wanna be fucked up just like you      Hold on tight   For the ride of your life   Bigger and better   As advertised      The ultimate   Tested and tried   With too many dead friends   to hide behind