i wish that i could say i am a perfect man   one day i decided i would think on this,   i wish sometimes that i would not be who i am      not knowing if faith and pain could co-exist:   could i ever on my own conceive   of someone i did not know, but i need?   i must be made to be at peace and communion      'cause there must be some place somehow from where I have fallen   Chorus   i find through every ounce of pain i feel   that my mind cannot deny that God is real   leaves me in conclusion that i know the way      the inconsistency of what i say i should be   compared to what i am in actuallity   though i am unable to always obey      my soul's hunger for a deeper life   nothing in this world has satisfied   the weight of my misdeeds were crushing, blinding me   i still live with pain inside but now i see      - Solo -   - Chorus -         the peices of my life are scattered on the floor   i stared at them till i could take no more   i do not deserve to be set free   forgiveness is what i despereately need         if it wasn't for the perfect blood was shed   would i not be dead inside but i live instead   - Chorus (2x) -      believe through all my tearsi know my faith's still here