When I was thirteen, I bought a scally cap    looked up to the older guys who drank at the rat   couldn't wait to grow up and drink with the crew    put my name on the map and have a social few   Wooh oh ohh   I recall when I was small I thought I'd be legend soon   but that was then and this is now a harder road cannot be found    don't get me wrong, good times were had    sometimes the fun outweighed the bad    but all in all, now said and done I can recall more bad than fun      [Chorus]   It's killing me   the answer's here, it's plain to see    it's taken me   I'm half the man I thought I'd be    it's killing me   it's taken years but now I see    I'm not the man I thought I'd be      I'd fight them all, big or small    angel dust and Bud tall    collars up and fists the same   protect your friends and family name    had my lumps, received a few but not near what I deserved   some say this life's my punishment    some say this life's my just deserves      [Chorus]