It's like somebody put a gun in my hand    Told me to pull the trigger    wherever it lands it lands    It's like I'm beating my head up against the wall    Bruised and burning my eyes can't see at all       My indecision is my own decision    Who are you to tell me that I'm wrong    Unmotivated maybe a little jaded    Who told you to put your words in my song?       All this time I tried to put my feelings down deep inside    Jumping up and down    Jumping all around    No one ever saw me fall       But maybe things can be different but I haven't reached that point    just yet       Maybe you can change my mind and leave these things far behind me now       First I'm up and then a second I'm down    When am I ever gonna reach that middle ground?