I've never felt so alive   I've never had to run and hide   The things I want I cannot have   The things I need are all so bad      What you say    I could have been (x3)   I am   I could have been (x3)   I am   You could've been (x3)   You are    You could've been (x3)   You are      My best excuse is that I'm drained    from everything that keeps me sane    My sickness keeps me in control   From everything you'll never know   What you say       I could have been (x3)   I am   I could have been (x3)   I am   You could've been (x3)   You are    You could've been (x3)   You are      Does it make you happy   Does it make you mad   Why am I still laughing   Look at what you had   Does it make you feel good   Does it make you sick   That you knew that I would be the one to trip      I could have been (x3)   I am   I could have been (x3)   I am   You could've been (x3)   You are    You could've been (x3)   You are      No control (x3)