Innocence, I began, youth my direction.   Ignorance, love in my heart, no detection.   Tried to explore, dying for more.   Life, death, please mother let me begin.         I closed my eyes, everything a lie.   Rebellion to rebel, fallen in deep, why?   Tried to deter, dying not to see.   Hate, hate, please mother leave me be.         I created, I found myself at least I thought.   Lust for for love rotted me, no detection.   Tried and achieved, what was not conceived.   Watch me, please mother look at MEEE!!         I fell, I fell hard, face down denial.   I've beaten myself into the ground.   I tried to rise, everything changes, not me.   Wrong or right, please mother forgive me.         I looked, I looked at myself, my direction.   All these years gone, but I found love.   Myself, I'm off to explore again with peace of mind.   Every day mother, father I'm more like you.   I understand why you do the things you do.         Disease!! Rots under my skin.   Disease!! Committed like sin.   Disease!! Starving for more.   Disease!! I don't want to cure.