Lost in my own little crowd   I can see my silver lining on the cloud   No one knows or no one cares   The pains that I feel and go through   I want to be free for just once   And let the people know that I care   But no one really listens they just pass   And pretend that you are as invisible as neutron gas   But fuck that I am not just another star in the sky   And humans are not just another person in my crowd   My crowd you hear that its mine   And no one elses so peel of the dead skin   And realize the world we are living in   Everyones fake no one is real   But please just for once I want to be heard   Thats why I am writing this for all of you   Its my serenade and my deaf toned song   To remember the past I never had   And how fast I changed no one knows      Because they dont know my story as well as me   Its mine and not yours so let the fuck go   Dont drag your feet on me you assholes   This is mine and mine only I choose to share   My story is about to start so you better listen   If you want to know I was never really proud   Of myself or what came out my mouth   But to say the most for everything   The one left in my veins is nothing   I am empty and not suprised that death wants me   I wait for the death clock to stop   My little midnight incident in the bathroom   Please dont you fucking cry just because I died   I deseved this I didnt need to be happy   Everyone else needed to be happy   I cant tell you enough but now comes the time...      [gunshot]      Death....