I find it so hard to be true   And all these lies I'm telling you   Are little anchors in my chest   That pull us down into this mess      I find it easy to distract   Just as soon as you turn your back   I'll be gone again      I find it so hard to be true   And all these secrets, I keep from you   Are like a blackness in my heart   That only tears us both apart      I find it easy to pretend   That we're not heading for our end   That's why I'm telling you      I built a wall, I cut you off   Now there's no lies that's gonna fix this up   I played the saint and a saint I ain't   Now all the hurt is here again, here again      I find it so hard to be true   But I'm gonna try my best for you   And every distance that we've known   Will disappear before too long      And every line we've ever drawn   Will be erased before we're gone   And this I swear to you      I built a wall, I cut you off   Now there's no lie that's gonna fix this hurt   I played the saint, I cursed your name   Now there's no one but myself to blame, that you're gone      Could I have put it this way   It's wishing only   To see it's never too late   I'm feeling it work for me      And every word that you say   I got my heart out for you   And only wish that you'd wait   Till I was waving away      I know that I may have you   There's no more fire left in me   I'm breaking down all the walls   You slowly built around me      Why do you ask for my trust   When you're not worthy of it   I find it hard to adjust   Till I get it from me