I no longer know what's real anymore   In the back of my mind, I have opened the door   That leads to the past and the love we once shared   I keep asking myself, what am I doing there      What am I doing there holding you tight   Taking down your hair lying close by your side   Making believe that you still care   My new life is here what am I doing there      I don't get much rest with the secrets, I keep   And I'm afraid that some night, oh, I'll talk in my sleep   How could I explain to the one lying here   She's loving me now what am I doing there      What am I doing there holding you tight   Taking down your hair lying close by your side   Making believe that you still care   My new life is here what am I doing there   My new life is here what am I doing there