It must have been maybe it was   I don't remember when   When I fell for myself   I fell off the chair    That sat me next to you      Could I take all the love   That I have for myself   Could I give it all to you   Can I kill the big monster   That lives down inside   Can we throw all the history aside      It's not easy to pretend    That we're not   Enemies sometimes   But it pleases me defending   All the memories tonight      It may have been a bit hopeless   But something honest   Went down that night   I lifted my head for   Just long enough to see   What I'd never seen in my life      Could I take all the love   That I had in myself   Did anything make it through   And it kills not to know    What goes on in your mind   Can you throw all the history aside      It's not easy to pretend    That we're not    Enemies sometimes   But pleases me defending   All the memories tonight