I need help I cant leave I cant breathe   I see my way out but I'm in too deep to care   Emotionless, I feel myself about to break   Self-destruction, self corruption   This life I know, this life I hate   With each passing day my outlets slip away   I believe the lies and I dig myself in deeper      I play a daily game   Of tug a war   What's in my heart and what's on my mind   Not weighing circumstances   Passing blindly by my chances   Knowing some day I might die      In the silence of my nightmare   No one else can hear me scream   No one else knows what I need   No one else believes   I could die and not care   I need something to set me free      I play a daily game   Of tug a war   What's in my heart and what's on my mind   Not weighing circumstances   Passing blindly by my chances   Knowing some day I might die      Reflections from my past that seem so unreal to me   I'm out of touch I can no longer feel me   My heart is sick and my mind is reeling   Don't know myself   Don't know why I still don't care      I'm the only one that's playing   And I'm the only one that's paying   The more I struggle the more I lose   I dig myself in deeper and I still don't care      I play a daily game   Of tug a war   What's in my heart and what's on my mind   Not weighing circumstances   Passing blindly by my chances   Knowing some day I might die      And then the moment comes when you reach for my heart   Well I know it's too hard to find