Each step every day, I am not alone   My guilt for a light that has never shone   This haunting pain feels like home   Suddenly family has another meaning   I'll see you in the next life      Another day goes by for me   I'm sorry yours was not to be   And never will      Why did I send you on your way?   Is all of this worth what you paid?   I won't ever know      I weep for a cross that was never born   If I never knew, would I ever mourn?   Lines fade on a vague moral rainbow   Black and white, day and night, wrong and right   Oh I envy simplicity      Another day goes by for me   I'm sorry yours was not to be   And never will      How could I bring back what is gone?   I cannot change what I have done   I can only wait      Asleep inside the womb   No stranger place to call a tomb   This way at least you will be close to me      And when the night is near   I see you shining bright and clear   Tonight I think I'll count the stars again      I'll never lose a race   I'll never see that smiling face   I'll never get the chance to tuck you in      You have forgiven me   And that's the greatest tragedy   I won't be able to forgive myself      How can I wave goodbye   With blood all over my hands?