So many things I wanted to do    So many times I wished I said    The words you want to hear    But they never appeared in my mind       All my life I've been dragged    Between the feelings I never felt    I know that this is wrong    I can't take this anymore       I feel - that my last time is here    I paint the wall with my brain       My feelings for you is strong    But the words is so far away    The tombs in my mind is filled    With emotions I buried deep       I cry alone and in pain    I give my last thoughts to you    I hope you'll not miss me    When I'm dead and gone       I let you see - the truth of who I am    A fake - a joke of mankind       My journey has begun    A trip from mother earth    Hope the angels will receive me    Or I fall down to hell       A rope round my neck    A chair under my feet    I take the last step    To reach eternity       All my life I've been dragged    Between the feelings I never felt