in the dark of night I watch the shadows loom   the entity waits in the corners watching my every move   a knock at the door, a break in the waiting, an end to the silence   an end to the hopes and remains      I turn to the light and open the door   but cannot break the static sound   and all my actions amount to nothing   whether giving up, or giving in, or never coming down   all the dreams I had to give were all the things you disdained   what used to be mine became yours in the end   what used to be pure had become so murrain      and the spirit of hope   lies hopelessly still   the hurting will heal   but the heart never will   the dreams that I share   are the first things they take   sometimes I believe   I was god's first mistake      I don't believe in progress, I don't believe in change   I don't have anything you'd want to steal   I don't believe in god, I don't believe in love   and I don't believe I can feel   with cheshire cat smiles she shattered this trust   we used to have gold but it soon became dust   set course on the waves and unfurled my sails   what used to be hope, just one more reason to fail      and the spirit of hope lies hopelessly still   and the hurting will heal but this heart never will   and the dreams that I share they are the first thing they take   sometimes I believe I was god's first mistake...