Uncovering the lie   Couldn't look you in the eye   Got caught      And every time I thought we'd mend   You'd just fall apart again   It's not your fault      Cause no matter how many seeds of doubt she plants in me      I drink to numb the pain   Til everything's the same   Was barely there      Climbing up the walls   Wondering if we'll    Be the same      Cause no matter how many seeds of doubt she plants in me      I know that I will be alright   Buried encased safe inside   Built from pains and fears   That I've collected over years   I knew that I       There's a girl that thinks that she is in love with me   She believes I   And though I know she's real   Just can't bring myself to feel anything      Cause no matter how many seeds of love she plants in me      I know that I'm not - I'm not okay   Nothing can grow in here - suffocates   And I'm truly sorry dear   There's just not much left in here   I'm afraid that I