How many times have I said to myself   This means nothing to me   What doesn't kill only makes me stronger   So comforting to believe      But in these strange days I find   That I'm a ghost in my own life   Can you forgive these blood-stained hands   And trust the scars have healed out of sight      Where was I to know   You were running out of reasons   Afraid to just let go   We were crashing into pieces   But where was I, where was I to know      And I'm so tired of feeling sick and tired   Shattered to my very soul   A dying light in a coal black sky   I'm too young to feel so old      With hungry voices, we stand in a circle   Chalked upon the floor   We're waiting for grace is it all in vain   Or do we count the ways once more      Where was I to know   You were running out of reasons   Afraid to just let go   We were crashing into pieces   But where was I to know      I'm humbled by your patience   In time the spirit grows   Will bring me to your garden   But where was I, where was I to know