Fortnights, I dreamt we   Were entwined like trees   The mud warms my roots from beneath   But you're petrified   Like Roman statues   A beauty that will melt the granite   And I want to shout out to myself   That this was all something true   I took a spoon to my chest   Pulling out your red overcoat   And I just wanted to be hot   And buttoned up in warm fleece   Winter days were left so long ago   You set your sails   Across the endless blue   Where you found comfort   In me   And from all this swimming   It has seemed to teach me   That love is just a luxury I can't afford   I want myself to keep pressing   Across the waves as a fish   I seem to keep getting swallowed   By all the whales that block my love   Where you would just catch me   And reel me in and hopefully   You'd kill me and let me sleep