It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen   That I bought those pills, I thought I would need   And I wrote a letter to my family, said it's not your fault   And you've been good to me, just lately   I've been feeling like I don't belong   Like the ground is not mine to walk upon      And I've heard that music echo through the house   Where my grandmother drank by herself   And I sat watching a flower as it was withering   I was embarrassed by it's honesty   So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face   Not this fucking wreck, that's taken it's place      So please forgive what I have done   No you can't stay mad at the setting sun   'Cause we all get tired I mean eventually   And there's nothing left to do but sleep      But spring came bearing sunlight, those persuasive rays   So I gave myself a few more days   My salvation it came, quite suddenly   When Justin spoke very plainly   He said, "Of course it's your decision but just so you know   If you decide to leave, soon I will follow?      I wrote this for a baby who has yet to be born   My brother's first child, I hope that womb's not too warm   'Cause it's cold out here and it'll be quite a shock   To breathe this air, to discover loss   So I'd like to make some changes before you arrive   So when your new eyes meet mine   They won't see no lies, just love, just love      I will be pure, no, no, I know I will be pure   Like snow, like gold, like snow, like gold