You've been on your own since you learned how to adjust to   You felt like you had to baby sit your owners just to feel like all the others      All you wanted was...   Something that was normal and stable   You've always been so aware and so able   But you still seem so far away   It's difficult to enjoy all the holidays   It's nothing more than the same as the other days   But you can't feel any other way      You have to tell yourself why   Gotta keep your spirit alive   Gotta keep yourself movin' forward   You never gave into anything around you   With something you could never afford      All you wanted was   Something that was normal and stable   You've always been so aware and so able   But you still seem so far away   It's difficult to enjoy all the holidays   It's nothing more than the same as the other days   But you can't feel any other way      When you wish for this   You'll ditch everything else   It just floats away and crawls out your skull   All you wanna do is crawl inside your hole   Disappear forever      Something that's normal and stable   You've always been so aware and so able   But you still seem so far away   It's difficult to enjoy all the holidays   It's nothing more than the same as the other days   But you can't feel any other way      Forever   Forever   Forever   Forever