I've been here for such a long long time   Wishing that it all was mine   Yet I was stupid and let it pass me by   And went on to pretend it was all still fine   I waited and hesitated, and I've sedated   My feelings and intentions behind what I've said   Joking about, not letting it out   Wishing that I would have Concentrated   When I had my chance, I was a fool   Thinking I was so smart too cool   Not stopping to remember how I felt before   Not thinking so thoughtful      It seems like forever, that I've wanted You   But I could never overcome my Fear    Afraid if I told you how I feel   It might not be what you wanna hear      Suffered in Silence    Just to keep you happy      I'm not to quick to pick up on a hint   I've been burned bad enough on signals I thought they've sent   I only could think about how we could've been   But it's to late now, all the time I had I spent   I see you all the time, but I still hide   Keeping what I feel, locked up inside   Afriad it might make it, different in a bad way   Never look at me the same way, If I tried   Will I ever let it go?   Will I ever lose control?   Will I ever let it show?   Will I ever know?