All the lies I never said   are haunting me, inside of my head:   "Don't tell a soul,   they'll never know   that you're missing him to death"      All the walls are caving in   Now it's safe to say that you win   and this black sea,   Yeah, I'm drowning.   I forget how to swim   at times like this.         when she holds your hand and traces the lines   just remember that I'm doing fine.   what makes me happy is seeing you smile,   even if it means that you can't be mine.         the words carved on my teeth   are getting harder and harder for me to speak    and this heart in my hand   is slowly eroding into a sand   and i know that it's bad   to be this young and so SO mad   at the world and the men    that make me realize that the things i want    are just for dreams         When she holds your hand and traces the lines   just remember that I'm doing fine.   What makes me happy is seeing you smile,   even if it means that you can't be mine.      I'm the worst I've been but I'm fine.   I still can't get you out of my mind.   what makes me happy is seeing you smile   and I'm sorry, but i need you to be mine.