im sitting down inside the shower   as beads of water climb my veins   the tile floor is cold beneath me    the steam is fogging mirror panes       im making mental notes of halls ive walked    and pills ive yet to take   ive recovered slow and hope that    ill be seeing you today         white lights flash below and flicker   the city wakes as i still sleep   in an electric bed my arm is fed    i feel the glowing tv screen       the clever clock above will sing out   at every hours chance it has   im feeling lonely less cause youve been here   the time will surely pass      ive been kept inside for too long now    im begging you to break me out   theyve medicated me for days    im living in a foreign place   ive been wasting away   but i figured out that healing starts    when i can see your face      now im looking out my window. the cars are moving so slow.    the grass absorbs some rays of sun below.      a sharpened needle breaks my skin and im waiting for the medicine   to take me to a world devoid of loneliness      now im sinking to the bottom    of an ocean under me   the lights are dimming from the surface   and muffled noises surround me      ive lost the sense of touch    but love is still inside my dream   of perfect silence and escaping life   we drift slowly to sleep      youve been here all day long   i hope you see what its meant to me