life didn't turn out the way i thought it would   not in denial, lost the lamplight that will take me there   soon i'll be accused of trying something new   and when i'm on trial, i know these charges won't stick      look, i've lost my way   and ninety-nine didn't stray   will you come for me,    will you beat the wolves to me again   so close, so close,    please don't let it go let it go   wishes soon forgotten,    never have i seen with such clarity      tear down all your preconceptions of me   as I shed these tears of joy for this misery