settle into certainty evermore   it was a heart attack at the age of twenty-four   smiling and blue on the hardwood floor   locked bedroom door   the last thing I remember   was you walking away   your long black hair that set fire to the air   your empty eyes      sometimes the weight of the world comes crashing down on you   just find the place where she's marked in the snow   on the other side of town   before the sun goes down      nyack with the sky in flames   rushing up to block out the sun   everything had come undone   you said that you could save everything   I promise you that you were wrong