Why can抰 I   just feel something besides   just some numbness?   No pain   no happiness inside   I can抰 feel at all   I can抰 seem to   grasp what抯 going on   without going into   some kind of trance   it抯 so bizarre   I can抰 feel at all   I can抰 see at all   No sign of emotion   nobody is listening to me no   no nervous reaction   Just another   blank expression for me   what抯 wrong with me?   Senses dull now   staring at the wall   it must be a defect   Going numb and    I can抰 feel at all