Believe me when I say    that I've tried to understand    but something within me    just holds me back and says I can't       I'm fading, degrading    trapped inside this cycle hell    fighting, and hiding    a persisting lust that I must fill       Wanting to give you    all I can that's in my will    but inside it has rule    the more I grab the more I spill       Decided, divided    I cannot drop this burning coal    trusting, and lusting    competing sides strive for control    why?!!!!!!!!!!!!!       Falling torn by deceit, approaching self-defeat    the mental light that's hounding, pounding    I'm falling       A feeling of sadness    follows me with my mistakes    scarred in my conscience    haunting every move I make.       Alone, drifting miles apart    I'm found, with an empty heart    the sound, of peace is calling me    I wait, for a time of ease       Can't you see, that I am weak    can't you see, I'm falling.