Uncommon amount of the time    at home, hardly a    word on the telephone. Finally    find the time to get   to know you. Still mapping it out    like a master plan,    something to do with my idle hands.    Write you a letter    addressed from California. It's vivid    and strong in my    memory, an absence that smacks of    abandoning. It let    to the battle that ultimately destroyed    us. I'm nothing if    I don't know your mistakes, the pill is    as bitter as I can take.    It twists like a blade when I leave for    California. I hope that    you know this is killing me, it's all in    the name of the family.    We only can play the cards the dealer    dealt us. The end of    the cycle is closing in, with you I see    new hope begin again.    There suddenly seems to be promise in    California. As heavy    as all this is weighing me, believe in    the words I am promising.    I'm still here for her. The distance is    only and obstacle, hardly    a match for a miracle. I'm finally ready    to go to California.