I thought for a long time   That it began the day you left   Saying goodbye on mama's porch   Forsaking this troubled woman   Cause you thought you did your best   And couldn't give more   You never meant to let me down   But finally I was alone   She's crazy its not her fault   But I paid for it anyway   You needed to save yourself   How come you didn't save me too?   Why did you leave me there?      It all began the day he left   It must be someone else's fault   Cause you gave all the love that you had   Talking about it with all your friends   Cause the phone is the only escape   From this apartment    You never wanted me to suffocate   But finally I drowned with you   He's a rat, don't ever trust him   I don't trust anyone anyway   You nedded to save yourself   And I'm old enough to understand to understand   Why do I always have to understand?      You might not realize how it hurt   You always did what you could   I just waited for something that never came   Tried all the ways to kill the pain   I'm what I am cause of it all   I'm glad I chose to save myself   I never meant to be ungrateful   But you owe it to me   I never meant to be rude   But it was the only way to say it   I never meant to be mad at you   But I was angry anyway   And it never got me anywhere