Can't keep runnin' away      I must admit on some occasions I went out like a punk   And a chump or a sucka or something to that effect   Respect, I used to never get when all I got was upset   When niggas use to be like what's up fool?      And tried to seat a nigga like the lip for no reason at all   I can recall crip niggas throwin' C in my face down the hall   I'm kickin' it in the back of the school, eatin' chicken at three   Wonderin' why is everybody always pickin' on me      I tried to talk and tell them chill, I did nothing to deserve this   But when it didn't work I wasn't scared just real nervous   And unprepared to deal with scrappin' no doubt   'Cuz my pappy never told me how to knock a nigga out      But now in 95 I must survive as a man on my own fuck   Around with Fatlip yes, ya get blown' I'm not tryin' to show   No macho is shown but when it's on, if it's on, then it's on      There comes a time in every man's life   When he's gotta handle up on his own   Can't depend on friends to help you in a squeeze   Please, they got problems of their own      Down for the count on seven chickens   Shits don't get to heaven till they faced these fears in these fear zones   Used to get jacked back in high school I played   It cool just so some real shit won't get full blown being      Where I'm from they let the smoke come quicker   Than an evil red neck could lynch a helpless colored figure   And as a victim I invented low key till the keyhole itself got lower than me   So I stood up and let my free form, form free      Said I'm gonna get some before they knockin' out me   I don't sweat it I let the bullshit blow in the breeze   In other words just freeze      It's 1995 now that I'm older stress weighs on my shoulders   Heavy as boulders but I told ya   Till the day that I die I still will be a soldier and that's all I told   Ya and that's all I showed ya      And all this calamity is rippin' my sanity   Can it be I'm a celebrity   Whose on the brink of insanity   Now don't be wishing of switchin' any positions with me      'Cuz when you in my position, it ain't never easy   To do any type of maintaining 'cuz all this gaming and famin' from   Entertainin' is hella straining to the brain   And but I can't keep runnin' I just gotta keep keen and cunnin'