All alone beside myself   All alone beside myself   And I've troubles on my mind      And I've reached the depths of life   And I hear that deaths alright   Still I'll wait for you to try      When the dreams have been and gone   And the torment has begun   My emotions run      Can't get by with what I've got   Always dwell on what I've lost   Just a loaded gun…      A symbol of my life, a symbol of my life      On the floor I crawl and writhe   As the day turns into night   I remove myself from sight      And I reached the depths alright   And I hear deaths part of life   Still I wish that you would try      When a dream has been and gone   And the torment has begun   The rejections done      I get by with what I've got   Always aware of what I've lost   Just a loaded gun…      A symbol of my life, a symbol of my life      Nothing more, nothing more to say to me