i really don't have that much to say   so i'll paint this smile back on my face   and let you wonder why i'm so happy all the time      i need to find myself some air   but this shit lingers everywhere   i try to hide      you say what's the big idea   well why can't you just walk away   and forget the things you say you need      stop taking life so seriously   it's the only way that i know to be      *chorus*-----------------------------------------------------------   i can't run away from what's inside   i can't wait it out hoping it passes me by   i've forgotten what it was   i wanted to leave behind   *chorus*-----------------------------------------------------------      take it slow   judge the weight   before i make the same mistakes      and let my mind fade   this ignorance replaces the pain      but i'm still losing too much sleep   for all these memories that i keep      to remind me why   i feel absent in my own life      *chorus*      but the pain still exists   after the memories die, the memories die      it's all up to me   cause i can't change   what it is i've seen      i have to take what i am given   because without it i am incomplete   this is my life and all the space between      *chorus*      but the pain still exists   after the memories die      i've forgotten what it was (3x)   i wanted to leave behind      i really don't have that much to say   so i'll paint this smile back on my face   and let you wonder why   i'm so happy all the time