I was choking on a cornflake   You said “Have some toast instead”   I was sleeping maybe three hours   You said “You should get to bed”   I was waiting at the church door   For the minister to show      I was looking at the new year   You said “Walk before you crawl”   I was feeling like a loser   You said “Hey, you’ve still got me”    I was feeling pretty lonely    You said “You wanted to be free”   I was looking for a good time   You said “Let the good times start”   With a quiver of your eyelid   You took on someone else’s part      Maybe I’m a little greedy   You said “Think before you speak”   Sometimes I’m a little seedy   You said “Everyone is weak”   Now I feel a little better   Is there something I can do?      But I never heard the answer   I never had a clue   But what about me   I don’t really see   How things will improve   If all you want is to stay loose      There’s a little echo calling   Like a miner trapped inside   If I tell her of this moment   She will in me doubts confide   And she’s on me like a blanket   Like a stalk of wilting grass   I’m not sure about her motives   I’m not sure about her past      But my faith is like a bullet   My belief is like a bolt   The only thing that lets me sleep at night   A little carriage of the soul   If it starts a little bleaker   Then the year may yet be gold      Happiness is not for keeping   Happiness is not my goal   But what about me   I don’t really see   How things will improve   If all you want is to stay loose      But what about them    You play mother hen   To a gaggle of gangling youth   All you want is to stay loose      I was living through the seconds   My composure was a mess   I was miles from tenderness   It was dark outside, the day it was lying in pieces   Everything is flat and dreary   I couldn’t care what’s in the news   Television is the blues   Television is hysterical laughter of people      And I know it could be me   I’m always asking for more   I keep running round in circles   I keep looking for a doorway   I’m going to need two lives   To follow the paths I’ve been taking