To think of my task is chilling   To know I was carefully   Building the mask I was wearing   For two years, swearing I'd tear it off      I've sat in the dark explaining to myself   That I'm straining too hard for feelings   I ought to find easily   Called myself Jezebel, I don't believe      Before I say that the vows we made   Weigh like a stone in my heart   Family is family   Don't let this tear us apart      You lie there, an innocent baby   I feel like the thief   Who is raiding your home   Entering and breaking   And taking in every room      I know your feelings are tender   And that inside you the embers still glow   But I'm a shadow, I'm only a bed of blackened coal   Call myself Jezebel for wanting to leave      I'm not saying   I'm replacing love for some other word   To describe the sacred tie   Tthat bound me to you      I'm just saying   We've mistaken one for thousands of words   And for that mistake   I've caused you such pain   That I damn that word      I've no more ways to hide   That I'm a desolate and empty   Hollow place inside      I'm not saying   I'm replacing love for some other word   And to describe the sacred tie   That bound me to you      I'm not saying   Love's a plaything no, it's a powerful word   Inspired by strong desire   To bind myself to you      How I wish that we never had tried   To be man and his wife?   To weave our lives into a   Blindfold over both our eyes