Beautiful garden, where have you gone?   my self delusions are leaving me in the storm   Taking for granit, all the goodness that ive found   somewhere i lost all, the control came crashing down      and i pray for forgiveness   look for the answer   cause its hard   for me to pretend   look to my mother   call to the captain   cant you see   this state that im in   no one would notice   nobody noticed   cause its me where it began      beautiful morning, please dont wake me from my sleep   cause i need some comfort, to regain my sanity   ?i dont want to feel this crazy,   i dont want to feel this heartache   ??   im so broken hearted   no where left to run   no where left to go   so i hope      i pray for forgiveness   look for the answer   cause its hard for me to pretend   look to my mother   call to the captain   cant you see   this state that im in?   and no one would notice   nobody noticed   that its me, where it began   and i pray for forgiveness within      I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me   I think of every little stupid mistake that is made   This time ill have the strength to gather myself   Im falling to pieces      And I pray for forgiveness   look for the answer   cause its hard for me to pretend   look to my mother   call to the captain   cant you see   this state that im in   pray for forgiveness   looking for justice   searching for answers   call to my mother   pray for forgiveness   breaking the silence      nobody knows it, nobody noticed   thats it me   where it began