If I was brave I'd shut my mouth   Put an end to our fights   I'd jump into a neon light   Taste the concrete and break my bones   I could be born again   As one of your lucky strikes      If I wouldn't fuck up my   mind from time to time...   Constantly, I would drive myself insane      I was always the December girl   I never noticed them at all   I slept through the summer   And was drunk through the fall      I am beautiful in the dark   Everyone can be beautiful   in the spotlight   From far below   All the praise falls to the floor   I stand empty handed   waiting for a little more      I pop 24 pills a day, 8 with every meal   Just to make it to the next place