to think of all the time that passed    all the years that i've buried    youth's grace shattered so suddenly    that i was left naked and torn    and i dreamt of destroying    every beautiful fleeting thing    that would warm my heart until i believed in love    only to be reminded there's none here    so fuck the years       and to spite the sky i will rise again    my spirit scarred yet unbroken    so suddenly aware of the world's ashes    that i breathed too deep and choked on them    but you showed me light where i saw none    and my pain died off and was reborn as love    and now i have no god just undying faith    in the beauty of life despite our fate    so here's to the years