I'm looking back on a time when i could say I actually thought I cared about you   But after everything I've been put though   I realise that I've been living with false hope   It's drowning out my senses   It's drowning out my thoughts    This has got oh so confusing    And i've only got myself to blame    I can't believe...oh what was I thinking   I've only got my self to blame   You mean nothing to me   And you never fucking did   I can't stand to listen to your excuses anymore   I can only pray that you feel so alone   A guilty conscience hangs over your head   I can't believe...oh what was i thinking   I've only got myself to blame   But maybe I'm the only one to blame in all of this   I've got nothing to depend on anymore