life is hard when it has no meaning. i've never felt so low. no one to blame out but myself, so now i have to make things right. if not, i'll just sink deeper towards the bottom. where did it all go wrong? i have forgotten when. i'm always failing the trials i'm face with. i just hope that these tortured days will have an end. i'd give anything to forget the thoughts that plague me. what do you do when you want to forget a broken past? fucking up is how your learn, i know, i've been here before. but when the truth lays out before you, it has you dying cold. searching for a way out, i can't let this last forever. now i will confront what i've fought with for so long.