For so long I was living my life   Very secure in my conviction   I was sure no one would see inside   As long as I held to my perfection   But a voice within kept telling me it's something was wrong   That the truth I knew was merely contemplation   I tried to ignore that peaceful inner song   But my hand would not stop shaking      Watch the baby learning to walk   All it can do is stand   Wanting so much to be like them   Content to hold their hand   Watch the baby learning to talk   Able to mumble sounds   Trying so hard to be like them   Until he falls back down      Looking back, all those years of frustration   Better let them go or I'll fall again   Holding on to what's left of my faith   One day I'll find the perfect match   Then a voice within reminds me how it really used to be   In spite of myself I made the transformation   But I remain a stubborn child    Searching desperately for a hand to place my faith in      Watch the baby learning to walk   All it can do is stand   Wanting so much to be like them   Content to hold their hand   See the baby learning to talk   Able to mumble sounds   Trying so hard to be like them   Until he trips and falls back down