An unfortunate journey   Through a bleak sea of loneliness   I carved through the waves of grief   In a black vastness of self doubt      I have never felt so alone   So pitiful and wretched and low   I'm tried by a terrible wind   The misery and the pains blow      Fill my vast sails of ruin   Steer me towards the bleak end   A horizon of purples and reds   The still waters of my welcome end      The clouds of grey come overhead   A storm will hunt me down   And rip the guts out of my body   Then I would surely drown      The unforgiving wind searches   And lashes me like a whip   The self-pity overwhelms me   My heart sinks like a ship      Thrashing out at torment and pain   The maddened sea engulfs me   I let myself be swallowed up   The magnificent weight upon me      Deeper I go, deeper down   Didn't think it could get any blacker   The cold bites, the pressure builds   I think I no longer matter      Can't tell if my eyes are open or closed   The grieving waters swallow   The pain I'm in through my life of sin   The Devil will doubtless follow      When lovers die, friendships fade   When kin all lie forgotten   The gates of agony spew forth   Your memories, stinking and rotten      So deep now, I feel so numb   I'm ravaged by utter loss   The guilt, the grief, the astounding pain   My body, they all will wash      I hope I ne'er return to life   Oh, Christ, just let me go   Let death devour my simple soul   Lets my misery grow