How many times have I fallen before you   How much longer can I go on   To raise to my feet, to try this game again   I often point fingers of blame      If only my mother knew the real me   Her heart would break, for I am shame   Not the strong man she raised from birth   A coward, a child, and a scared soul      In my dreams, I can fly away   And look back through tears of pain   Even if I were to never awake   I would still have my downtime      If only my mother knew the real me   Her heart would break, for I am shame   Not the strong man she raised from birth   A coward, a child, and a scared soul      A sweet embrace from honest love   Just won't be enough this time   If I had the cure, to save myself   I would then know how you feel      If only my mother knew the real me   Her heart would break, for I am shame   Not the strong man she raised from birth   A coward, a child, and a scared soul