I can pretend for you, that I mean every word said it's true   That I'd probably rather be like a stranger in disguise   And act as if nothing ever..      Died or faded away, got lonelier with age   And time isn't on our side      I'm sorry to take the thoughts that keep you awake   And make it seem like they're overrated   You certainly talk about me more when   I fall down   And when I get up, my time is never enough   Loved in front behind my back hated   I guess it has everything to do with luck      I can defend the truth   but I sound like white noise to my friends   As I raise my glass to you   In a stupor we speak words   That couldn't be more honest      Lies we lived before are fights without a war   I'm dead when it's in your head      I'm starting to think that all the buoys we sink   Are cutting our chances of being saved   I see that the end is all we have to let us know   I'd like to believe in something more than a dream   For when the will to be one has faded   I guess the truth will soon be deceived   My friend that isn't there,   My solitaire.