I woke up thinking how I've never had a good time    I seem to lack the kind of life that everybody has    I gotta have it, I gotta have it    The perfect feeling that everybody has    A little confused    To why I continue    To let the maggots enter me and live    I better sterilize my heart today    I better sanitize my mind again       And when I crawl    I bleed like an angel    Suicide    I'll never die because I haven't lived cause it's    Something I could never find    Something I could never find       I'm ripped up by all that I've found    Something aims at me from up in the sky    I'm still confused    To why I continue    With every day I change a little more    I have to fabricate myself today    I have to recreate myself again       Maybe my fault that I never really opened up    Take away every last piece of life cause it's    Something I could never find    Something I could never find       Something I could never find    Something I could never find    Could never find    Could never find