it builds up inside   intensifies   contained within never not i   anxiety   ready to explode   i shiver failing to hold it back   reality   drifting away   from conscience on my back   it's payback time   i'm punished for my life   hurt by the stone   suffocate my mind   cast by all i've ever met   why must this happen all at once?   i feel, i feel i wanna   i can't handle it   die, go away   why must this happen all at once?   surrendering inside   peel away my skin   ready to say goodbye   pounding at me all at once   feels as if...if i had a gun   pushing me   i was told once before   i know i'd reach the end of forever   deserve the hell i'm in   i know i got what's coming to me   i feel...i feel i wanna diewhy must this happen all at once