Nominate myself for what I want to achive  Form my surroundings in relation to the seed  Smiles swims in a muddy breath  thirsting pulsating blood  What else can I do, than to feed me with a bigger thirst    But I wonder why tears run dry  Mind control  well I think I've lost mine  Let's climb the holy mountain  and eat the stars    Under the wisdom tree  we'll drink the weeping grass  I need my fire drug  to feel the flood  I'm selfdestructive baby  But a friendly one    You better leave me here alone  I need this night to heal my world  Send me a smile and I'll get bye    But let me drink my wine tonight  Too late to turn back pages  ambush, a part of my life  Nowdays the sun won't shine  Cos like my head, its lost in a cloud  My heart is broken baby  but still it's pounding  Too long with pills and booze  my short-memory ain't what it should