I want to disappear   I'd just sleep all day   These spots on my hand   My skin just like sand   And the air so cold   I shudder and I can't sing      The carpet on my feet   Sweat stains on the sheets   Cough syrup and drug   Bandages and gauze   The razors dull the water cold against my skin   The radio log is static buzzin' around like tin      In all these empty plans   The ink stains on my hands   And everyone saves   The best words for the grave   Are these weary morning tones   I'll probably save mine too   If heavens just a long road home   Tell me it's true   I'll go too   I'll go too   I'll go too      Well, I lost my innocence today   I could feel her in my bones   My bones, my bones, my bones   My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood      And I woke up, tired, scared and sad   Soaked, drained, I felt so bad   Today, today, today   What you still, you still, you still, you still   Won't you say, you say, you say, you say   What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel   Which is nothing but hollow feelings, yeah   I can, done, I just don't care      And forget happiness, I'm fine   I'll forget everything in time   I swear I didn't know,   You know me, how I can't let go   And we're not guts, we're just hacks   All that life amongst the cracks   The scars, the siege that breaks    The ugliest scene, the worst mistakes    And everywhere I see her face   Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste   And there's no innocence like hers   Just emptiness and nerves      And this light from the window of my car   She'll never see it, oh my God   I was so surprised, it blew up in my face   Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God...   Oh my God, oh my... God      And I tear, I tear, so hard...   And I tear, I tear, so hard...   And I beg and scream, "I was wrong"   It's over, she's gone