It was his fault and he knew this after a while  It took him years to surface this discovery  He was better off before when he couldn't place it  He was better off before, left there to wonder    "Do I wear a sign that says, please mistreat me?"  So why?    His schoolgirl crushes never returned  Debilitated  With a childhood shyness and crippled words  Left him wondering    "Do I wear a sign that says, please mistreat me?"  So why?    As he got older  He grew colder and uglier on the inside